Seriously screw everything.
Why does everything good get messed up?
I'm shaking right now I'm so angry.
I can't fall asleep.
Why why why?
It has been quite a long time since I've updated this journal of mine.
So so so much has happened since December 29th,
but I won't go into detail, because that would take far too long.
Matthew and I have been dating 9 months today!
I really do love that boy.
I can drive now, I've got a car, and I've got
nine days of awful school left until I'm out for
the entire summer!
I'm so excited to be able to have the freedom of going wherever my heart
desires and not having anything tying me
back from doing what I want.
I've decided I'd like to get into some sort of hobby:
tap-dancing, writing, designing, or modeling.
Although modeling is my dream job, I wouldn't mind
just doing it for fun!
Well I'm overrun with school projects, so I must be going!
XOXO<3
It's been four days since I last posted about my trip, I'm a bit behind in my journal of my journey.
Day 5:
I went to Neuschwanstein, and saw the castle which Walt Disney based his castle off of,
ate some hearty German food, and freezed my booty off.
:]
The drive from Schweinfurt to Neuschwanstein was about 3 1/2 hours, of course I fell asleep.
After we arrived there, we checked out our room, the whole hotel was quite cute.
We didn't actually do much, but it was chill.
We did see the finale of A shot at love 2, it's all reruns here.
One word for that show: hilarious.
Day 6:
We actually toured the castle today.
This castle was amazing. It was built in the late 1800's, by Ludwig the 2nd, but he died before it was finished.
He stayed in the castle about 173 days total. He was a scientific sort of dude, and the castle was
equipped with running water, and a telephone.
After the tour we went back to Schweinfurt, at some brats, and hungout the rest of the night.
We went to a really sweet restaurant called Aposto.
Day 7:
Yesterday, my sister and Sam left Schweinfurt, and took a train to Paris, so my parents and I
were on our own.
No stores were open, so we tried finding other things to do.
We went to Vorndran to say goodbye to my uncle and aunt, they were going back to Spain.
Afterwards, we went to the cemetery
to see where my great grandmother was buried, but it was so large that we
couldn't remember where the grave was.
We decided to go to the laundry mat. We washed some clothes, and went back to the hotel, where
After going out to dinner again, we called it a night.
Day 8:
Today, we went to Vorndran again, and we haven't stopped moving and going all day.
A stop at a dress store called Billagi, the galleria, and the piercing place, turned out to be a successful trip.
I bought a dress for the Inauguration in two weeks, some makeup, and made an appointment for my double nostril tomorrow.
I finally got another power converter for my computer, and got a haircut as well.
I wish I liked it more, but it's okay.
:]
So much typing.
Ciao for now!
Day 3:
Today seemed to go by a bit faster than the first two, although we didn't do much.
The 24th of December in Germany technically is Christmas, not the 25th.
Most of the stores closed at 12, so my parents and I rushed around and got some presents for my family.
My uncle Tommy and his wife Yolanda came in today, and
the whole family got to see them before going to my grandmother's house for dinner.
Once at my Oma's, we ate schnitzel, and lots of German food, exchanged gifts, and chatted.
We ended up leaving around 9:30, and now I'm here typing away again.
**UPDATE: Double nostril on Saturday.**
Future plans for the next 8 days?
Tomorrow: Petting zoos and lots of goats.
Friday: Neuschwanstein Castle for the night.
Saturday: Back to Schweinfurt, double nostril piercing, and shopping!
Sunday - Thursday: No set plans yet.
Friday: Leaving at 2, and should arrive home at around 6 pm Florida time. :]
XOXO.
I miss everyone so much, especially my Matty.
- Mood:
bored
Greetings from Germany again. :]
Today wasn't extremely exciting, but it was quite nice, and relaxing.
Day 2:
I woke up, got dressed, and went to a small, quaint cafe, called Cafe Vorndran.
It's the best place to go for breakfast. So tasty. :]
Then, mx sister, Sam, and I walked around Schweinfurt,
went to H&M, and bought some cute clothes.
After that, we went back to the hotel for a little while and waited for my parents to get
back from the bank and my grandmother's house.
At around 1, we left the hotel and met my parents at a bratwurst ''fast food'' stand.
We ate some brats, and went to look for formal dresses for my trip to Washington D.C.
My mom and I found two very nice dresses, but figured we would wait
and look around some more.
We got back to the hotel, and rested for a bit.
My parents and I also went to the car dealership, and the Marktplatz for foodzzz.
I got mornkompf, which is basically the best cookie/chocolate/marshmallow treat
ever!
I'll definitely be bringing some treats
back to Florida for everyone.
For the last hour I've been playing my Nintendo DS, and in about half an hour we're going
to a kick-bottom Chinese place.
Heck yeah.
Coffee time?
Tschüsse!
P.S.: Double nostril soon!
I'm going to start an 11 day Germany trip journal today, because it is my first day here!
Day 1:
My family and I decided to go to Germany again for Christmas this year!
(We went here last year.)
We're staying for 12 days, from the 21st of December to the 2nd of January.
Last night we began our long trip to Frankfurt from the Orlando Airport.
We arrived at the airport at around 6:15 P.M., flew through customs
and security checks, and stayed in the Delta Lounge for about 2 hours. I ended up falling asleep
because crying all day had tired me out.
Finally, the intercom had announced that we could board our flight, and we awaited our departure.
I fell asleep again within the first half hour of sitting on the plane. Apparently I had slept a straight 3 hours before being jolted awake by some bad turbulence. The whole flight was a bit rocky, so it was a long 9
hours. We got to Frankfurt at about 12 this afternoon, and luckily our
bags were some of the first to come out of the baggage claim.
After an extremely long walk across the airport, we found our rented car, the lovely Mercedes stationwagon. Haha. :)
Then, we drove 2 hours to get to Schweinfurt, and got to our hotel at 3 o'clock.
I did a bit of unpacking, then went down to the lobby to meet my Oma, and eat some foodz.
Now, I'm here typing to all of you!
I'm hoping the next 10 days will be a blast, and I'm trying to make the best out of this trip, although
I miss Matty and all of my friends.
I'll try my best to keep everyone updated!
Ciao!
- Location:Mercure Hotel computer room.
- Mood: lonely
- Music:Nien.
is a best friend.
I'm not saying I've been the greatest friend ever,
but I'd actually like it if someone would acknowledge
anything that I do.
Also, I'd like it if people wouldn't take advantage of me anymore.
I'm a human, I do have feelings. Even if no one really cares,
they're still there.
I honestly don't feel like I have anyone besides my family,
Matty, and Jesus there for me, who I can fall back on.
I want to get out of Florida.
- Location:Room.
- Mood: sad
- Music:PlayRadioPlay.
of my life. These past two weeks have been decent, not too much
to report. Matty and I celebrated our one month anniversary
on the 24th; I'm so happy we're together.
He may be the craziest boy alive,
but I like him a whole heck of a lot, and his craziness
just adds to how much I like him.
Besides that, I've been busy with school and youth,
and I can't complain about either of those.
This upcoming month should be busy, to
say the least.
Today, I'll be pursuing a cosmetologist's dream:
styling 6 girls' hair and doing their makeup.
It's homecoming night, so they ought to look their best,
and I'm the person who is responsible for making them happy.
Also, next week I'll be going to Halloween Horror Nights; this
will be my fourth year in a row. Also, the Underoath concert
is coming up. It seems like my life is taking
a turn for thrills, and I'm excited.
- Location:My room.
- Mood:
sleepy
I went to school, rode the bus home, and got home at about 3:20.
I knew that Matty was going to come over to
pick me up for the show around 4, so I
rushed around and ended up being ready in time.
For some reason, I didn't even ask who was in the car
when he said he was picking me up.
The Drive
It turned out that Tyler, Joey, and Anthony were sitting
in the back of the car.
As always, I rode shotgun, being grateful
that I didn't have to sit in the cramped back seat
with two other guys.
So, thinking that we were meeting
up with Timmy, Thaine, and everyone
in their cars, we drive on 1-4.
Realizing that Timmy left before us and was
already on Colonial drive, we decided that it would be best to meet everyone
in Clermont.
Besides getting lost a few times and Matty being
really nervous, the ride up was fine.
We ended up getting there half an hour late,
but everything turned out okay.
The Show
Matty's band was opening, so they set up the
equipment and the rest of us bought
our tickets. We stepped inside and
saw that there was probably ten other people besides us.
For the most part, everyone stood by the wall and watched
the band perform.
The first few songs went really well, except the first song, in
which Matty accidentally turned off the microphone,
but even that song went well.
Tyler went in for guest vocals on Exhumation of a Broken Vessel,
which is always nice to see.
So, it's the last song of the set, Strength in Life, and for the most part
the song was really great.
About halfway through the song though, everyone notices
that Maty looks a little off.
He starts laying down on the floor, which, isn't that weird
for Matty, but he could barely stand up.
The next thing we all know, Matty runs off stage, still screaming,
to the bathroom.
It ends up that Matty threw up, but still finished the song.
My boyfriend's such a trooper.
By that time, I'm freaking out,
wondering what is wrong and this stupid lady
wouldn't let me on stage.
I ended up going outside, where I found Matty sitting down.
He said that he was fine, but that did
nothing to calm me down.
Afterward
Everyone who rode in Matty's car and Timmy's car
decided to leave.
We went to Pita Pit, which has awesome pitas.
We left, walked back to our cars, and drove home.
- Location:My room.
- Mood: worried
- Music:Ludo: Topeka.
School seems to be okay, classes are decent.
I'm dating Matty, which is amazing, I can't imagine a better boyfriend.
I've been in an amazing mood this past month, besides tonight.
Apparently I gained 5 pounds, so I started crying.
Haha, awesome!
I want to lose ten pounds.
I want to lose ten pounds.
I want to lose ten disgusting pounds.
I can't stand being this concerned about my
weight it's all I ever worry about ever think about.
I can't help it can't stop it.
- Location:Room.
- Mood: crushed
Good mornin'.
Today is going to be a good day, because it's the last day of summer.
I'm totally excited for school, even if most of my friends aren't
even going to the same school as I am.
I'm writing my summer assignment, and it's actually
going alot better than I thought it would.
I'm certainly going to miss the freedom of
going out every night, doing whatever I want,
but I think I'll still have fun during the
school year.
I had a deep conversation with my parents last night
about school and my attitude towards it.
I'm definitely going to look forward to this school year, and not make myself miserable.
- Location:My bedroom.
- Mood:
calm - Music:Say Anything
I'm in Amelia Island, possibly one of my favorite places
in the world. It's been a great start of the last week of summer.
We've gone to about four antique shops, and I've fallen in love
with so many things. The culture here is just so awesome.
I am about to redesign my sister's room and
I have so many things I want to
do with it, I'm so excited. It's going to be so urban,
almost like Anthropologie.
I'm a little sad that summer is ending, I've had a lot of excitement this year.
I met an amazing person, went to a bunch of shows, and had an amazing time
at Camp Decision.
I'm also anticipating school, wondering what classes I'm going to have, whether
I'll have my friends in my classes, and how my teachers will be.
It seems as though ever since I've been going to
school, I've always wondered the same things, and it never fails to amaze
me how they all work out.
I'm hoping to see a certain someone on Thursday or Friday.
:D
I'll be updating this sooner or later.
- Location:Amelia Island.
- Mood: content
- Music:Before Their Eyes.
So, today wasn't the best at all.
I didn't get to go to the best concert ever.
:[
Whatever.
I realized how lonely I really am.
I have acquaintences and friends, but no one to really call my best friend.
It seems like every person I become close to either lives far away, moves away,
or becomes distant from me.
I can really tell you, distance sucks.
I want things to be different, to feel different.
This is one main reason why I'd like to go back to school,
I need people in my life.
I'm not saying my current friends aren't great people or anything,
but I need to fit in.
Right now, I'm not feeling that.
- Location:My bedroom.
- Mood: gloomy
- Music:Sky Eats Airplane
Currently, I'm very bored and sleepy.
I spent the past week at Camp Decision, and all I can say is that it was
completely amazing.
There is no clear cut way to describe the experience.
If you've ever felt the presence of God, you'll know what camp was like.
I met a few new friends there, bonded with some old friends,
all in all made stronger relationships with people, along with
a stronger relationship with God.
I really want to take a Missions trip to Mexico or Africa;
I'm absolutely inspired to tell people
about the love of God.
Also, I went to the DanceGavinDance show on Saturday night,
which was fun to say the least.
I met/ talked to some cool guys from Secret & Whisper. [A cool Canadian
band, check 'em out!]
My life has become a very thrilling ride, that I'm just hanging on to, with
God as the conductor, what could go wrong?
- Location:My bedroom.
- Mood: calm
- Music:Dancing by Elisa.
Good morning.
I had a really great thought just now.
If everything happens for a reason, every person is
created for a reason, and God created everyone, then
everything that happens, happens because of God.
When I read scripture that says that, it doesn't make sense,
but when you really think about it, you know God must exist.
You also realize that everything we go through is for God.
Every hardship, every tear, every sorrow.
Every happy day, every smile, every experience,
whether it's good or bad.
Then you find that you can take the good with the bad.
At least God is there to see you through it.
He will help you through, so stop doubting it.
The last few days have been very unpredictable, to say the very least.
Wednesday was great, lots of fun at the Liv it concert.
Thursday was equally fun, I went to the mall with my madre, and ended up going
to Scream The Prayer with Colin, Dober, and Chris.
We saw Steven and Bobby from Charlatan there. [OMG I wish I was you.]
Friday I went out for sushi with Michael and ended up hanging out with lots of people.
Saturday I mostly hung around the house.
Yesterday, I went to church, Steak & Shake, the Munizzi's, and Walmart.
Today Katie and I hungout all day basically.
Michael picked us up, along with Cami, Colin, and Dober to go putt-putting,
but we went to Stavro's instead.
We followed that with a quick trip to Planet Smoothie and Colin's house.
Then, all of us headed to Walmart to play guitar and sing to random people.
Katie and I came back to my house and played Nintendo 64, baked muffins, brownies, and bread.
Then, Katie had to leave, and now I'm typing this while I should be doing something.
haha.
- Location:Kitchen.
- Mood:
cranky - Music:Ashes and Wine.
Good Morning!
I'm currently waiting for this busy day to get started.
I'll be dying my hair, going out with some friends, and going to Taco bell.
After all of that I'm going to the Liv it concert!
This entire summer seems so busy for me, which I like.
I promised myself that I wouldn't waste a minute of my summer.
I'm possibly getting a decked out 1974 Monte Carlo like my dad,
as a first car that is.
It's in Illinois, so we would fly up to get it and drive back to Florida.
I want to make some stops along the way!
Sufjan Stevens made a cd about Illinois too,
I'm officially in love with him.
I listen to him almost everyday, his music never gets old.
My life is going quite well, I love being alive.
Ciao.
- Location:Bedroooooom.
- Mood: chipper
- Music:Sufjan Stevens.
I'm back from Boca Raton, and I have been since Sunday.
I have to say it was one of the most amazing conferences I've been to.
I met the nicest, most supportive people, I've ever come into contact with.
My faculty advisors were smart and intriguing, always able to make me think.
All in all I enjoyed the conference, I wish I could do it all over again.
Besides that, I decided against going to New York.
I'll be performing a skit in two weeks for Liv it, and I have a roommate for Camp Decision!
:]
My life has taken an unexpected turn for the better, which I am so elated about.
I feel like an optimistic person, always around equally happy people.
Does anyone want to plan to hangout anytime soon?
- Location:Condo.
- Mood:accomplished
- Music:Sweetness by: Jimmy Eat World.
It's been forever.
Here are my current plans for the summer:
June 12-15 NYLSC Camp in Boca Raton
June 29-July 8 Theater Camp in New York
July 14-July 19 Camp Decision in Melbourne
In between those camps, I'd like to go to Warped Tour on
July 10, and the PRP concert with SecondHand Serenade and
My American Heart on July 27!
I'm hoping this summer will be fun and exciting.
Also, I love the opportunity to possibly dye my hair like Hayley Williams.
:]
I also hope to meet some new people and go crazy!
Wow.
It's been three weeks since I've updated this journal.
So much has happened since then.
As of right now, I'm in Germany, enjoying a ten day vacation with my family.
Today had to have been one of the best days here, not that any were bad, although yesterday was a bit boring.
Christmas was very nice, got some cute presents.
:]
New Years Eve is party time.
Yayyyayayay.
I realized that I'm not really friends with girls anymore, surprisingly.
Too much drama.
Boys are more fun anyway.
Well ciao for now.
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